My poor little soul is just so sad :(
I have said all my spiritual and physical goodbyes, my flight leaves tonight, and I am just here, waiting, numb.
I can't comprehend the reality that it's all done. That soon I am going to be home (without any wild cats or cockroaches running around) and that my service will seem like a dream. Heck, I am still here and it already feels like a dream.
People keep asking me how it feels to go home today. How it feels to be done. How it feels to know a year is over, and the answer is, I don't know. All the learnings, experiences, and joys to the sadness, pains, and tests is like a giant pool of spiritual language that I need to sum up in a couple words. Like and ocean that pours forth from a straw, it's too hard to detail all the complexities of my emotions.
I am beyond excited to go home. So stoked for my new stuff and ready to integrate! I really am going to live everyday with a purpose and a clear mind. Yes, I will be very sad, but I am okay with that. What I am not okay with is being home and doing nothing. I hate that feeling.
I want to thank everyone for coming on this year long journey. You have seen that I went through a lot and have experienced tons of bliss.
I hope that what I have shared has inspired or related to your experiences in life.
Who knew, a year and a half ago I was just contemplating the idea of serving, and now, I'm done.
What lies ahead is just a life of learning, joy and new development. I know I will return one day to my spiritual home. That's what makes me smile. My life is a journey, a journey of Forever.
Ian
You are a natural communicator, and you are brave. You go out and do it, so to speak, and i think you are wondrously creative. that said, time to come back into the world and make it brighter for us! love esther
ReplyDeleteYou are wonderful. I love the way you look forward to the adventures to come, both those externally and internally. Your life is, most assuredly, a 'Journey of Forever" and I count those who are able to be with you on your journey blessed and extremely lucky.
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful post. you have a way with words that you've never had before.
ReplyDeleteIt's an experience and a feeling that is indescribable so you can say it's just that! You have done so well and done so much. We are all so proud of you and happy for you :)